it’s going…
28 Apr 2008 Leave a Comment
in depression, personal Tags: creativity, depression, ritalin
i am a third of the way done with my paper. i wish i could say i was half way done since it’s near 9 pm the night before the paper is due. i’ll take what i can get.
does anyone find that ritalin decreases your creativity?
i wrote a paper while i was off ritalin and did really well. so i’m wondering now if i write better papers when i’m not on ritalin. i wish i knew for sure whether that was true. if ritalin does affect my creativity, then i can be sleepy and productive or awake and not creative. hmmm – difficult choice to make, don’t you think?
past ten days
27 Apr 2008 Leave a Comment
in family, personal Tags: church, funeral, graduation, thesis
i can’t believe how hard the past ten days or so have been. there was one surgery, two deaths, and another surgery coming up for families of my friends. i had a difficult time doing my work as one might expect since i get affected by things that are going on around me. since i’ve been at my church, we’ve never had a funeral until yesterday. i don’t know if there have been others. it was sad. i helped organize for the refreshments after the funeral service. we didn’t know how many people were going to come so we prepared tons of food. people were happy to take left overs home.
anyway since i wasn’t able to really concentrate last week, i haven’t written my paper which is due tuesday. a complete draft of the thesis for graduation is due tomorrow! i am so thankful that my advisor is going to let me turn in one paper now and then the rest later. how did this semester pass by so fast?
god is good. oh yeah.
21 Apr 2008 Leave a Comment
in family, personal, religion Tags: friend, happiness, illness
my friend’s father got out of surgery. the surgery seemed to last forever! i was waiting to hear from my friend and was so relieved and happy to hear that the surgery went well! thank you God!
i was feeling miserable because of the news of my friend’s parents both needing surgery, another friend’s family member passing away, and another friend feeling really emotionally rocky right now.
i feel like a huge weight has been lifted off!
another good news is that a friend who is a mom of two ran the boston marathon and finished it! she ran for four and a half hours. can you imagine running for that long? wow. i’m so happy for her.
yes, like sucks sometimes. but then there are times when you just want to thank god and feel happy for yourself or for others. 
life sucks – sometimes
19 Apr 2008 Leave a Comment
in family, personal Tags: family, friend, illness
i just found out that a friend’s mom AND dad are going to get surgery in the next month or so. could things get worse than that? i don’t want to find out. but things couldn’t get much worse, could it? i spent the past twenty four hours or so with her until she could fly home. i didn’t know what to do, what to say, and if i could even hope to be helpful. all that i could do was to just be with her.
back to philosophy?
12 Apr 2008 Leave a Comment
in personal, religion, theology Tags: meaning of life, philosophy, philosophy of religion
my thesis is more philosophy of religion or philosophy than it is theology. so it got me thinking, should i go back to doing philosophy? well, i’d be doing philosophy of religion i guess. my advisor does philosophy and theology. that’s what i want to do too.
i’m reading nietzsche tonight so i can write my thesis. i can still turn in my thesis! that’s the good news. bad news is that i have to turn it in on monday. yup. monday. oh boy oh boy!
as i was doing research for my thesis i found some books on meaning of life. if you write a book saying that life is meaningless will someone still publish it? at the moment if i were to write a book about life i’d probably write that it was meaningless rather than meaningful. good thing no one is asking me to write a publishable book right now.
