back to philosophy?
12 Apr 2008 Leave a Comment
in personal, religion, theology Tags: meaning of life, philosophy, philosophy of religion
my thesis is more philosophy of religion or philosophy than it is theology. so it got me thinking, should i go back to doing philosophy? well, i’d be doing philosophy of religion i guess. my advisor does philosophy and theology. that’s what i want to do too.
i’m reading nietzsche tonight so i can write my thesis. i can still turn in my thesis! that’s the good news. bad news is that i have to turn it in on monday. yup. monday. oh boy oh boy!
as i was doing research for my thesis i found some books on meaning of life. if you write a book saying that life is meaningless will someone still publish it? at the moment if i were to write a book about life i’d probably write that it was meaningless rather than meaningful. good thing no one is asking me to write a publishable book right now.
dissociation
12 Apr 2008 1 Comment
in depression, personal Tags: depression, dissociation
so my therapist told me that i was dissociated (?) on wednesday. i felt in and out of focus in my attention and felt like i was floating. i had a difficult time holding up my body, moving, etc. who knew you could be dissociated for 5-6 hours! that’s insane!!!
wednesday wasn’t the first time i felt that way. so i must do it as a way to cope with my life. you gotta do what you gotta do, i guess.
i sure hope i won’t feel like that again any time soon. it felt awful. yuck!
