princeton review or kaplan?
12 May 2008 1 Comment
in personal Tags: kaplan, princeton review
i’m thinking about teaching GRE for princeton review or kaplan. for princeton review, i have to take their test which lasts an hour. for kaplan, you just give them your GRE scores. but each section has to be over 700. if i want to teach at kaplan i have to retake the GRE and bring up the score a little bit.
first i was considering more deeper questions like what are their teaching philosophies and what is the moral of the place like. but then i realized i’m probably more interested in getting paid more rather than less, teaching closer to where i live rather than having to travel far.
ativan
12 May 2008 Leave a Comment
in depression, personal Tags: ativan, depression, dreams, medicine, mental illness
i’m on ativan again. it miraculously lifted all my anxiety in about an hour; it started kicking in 30 minutes after i took it but could really notice feeling better after about an hour. i was wondering, does it mean that with the help of all the meds i’m on, that i can do what i enjoy and want to do? or that since i need to take meds to do what i want, that maybe i should do something else? something else that doesn’t require me to need medicine? it seems silly to ask it, especially when i wrote it and can see it on the screen. i mean, if i had some other passion which didn’t require meds, then fine. i should do that. but since i don’t have dream “b” that i could pursue if dream “a” does not work out, i’ll count my blessings and go on pursuing! i mean, for some people, medicine doesn’t help either. so then what are they supposed to do? take an early retirement from life? so yeah. i want to pursue what i am passionate about, without without ativan, etc. etc. etc.
gone mad
12 May 2008 2 Comments
in christianity, faith, personal, religion, theology Tags: church, coma, friends, preaching, sermons, sleep
i’ve gone mad i tell you. i slept two days pretty much straight through. how does one do that? i haven’t written anything since friday morning, which by a writer’s standard feels like an eternity and a day away. and actually i didn’t even leave the apartment yesterday. wow. i feel like i’m waking up from a coma, like life has gone past before me and i’m trying to catch up to it.
many years back, i heard a pastor preach and the only thing i remember is that he kept saying, “save yourself!” he was using that as a rhetorical device to point out that jesus could have saved himself but he didn’t. at least i think that’s what the pastor was trying to do. in my case, i think i do need to save my self! but now i’m wondering if the pastor’s point was that we can’t save ourselves no matter what we do.
how important are sermons in one’s christian life? at my church, lately, i’m thoroughly uninspired by the sermons. i don’t feel like sitting through the sermons anymore. but i know when the preaching is good that it really gets me going throughout the week. i don’t think i should have to miss out on hearing good sermons on sundays just so i could go to the same church with my friends.
