giving then taking it away
24 May 2008 2 Comments
in depression, personal Tags: anxiety, ativan, depression, feeling helpless, psychiatrist, stress
as i posed a few blogs ago, my psychiatrist put me on ativan. but then now she’s going to take some of it back. i had a passing thought that i could take more than i was supposed to. why? well, just because i could. but my psychiatrist is going away for a few weeks. so if i run out, i’ll just have to live through anxiety and madness! it doesn’t seem fair that i was honest about possibilities i was entertaining. i chose not to act on the ideations. and i don’t want to. but still she’s going to take the pills away. where is the trust??? oh well. i feel helpless, like i can’t do anything about the situation. i don’t want to be suffering when i know i could have taken a pill that would relieve the tension and anxiety that i feel, if only my psychiatrist hadn’t taken them away from me. if that happens i am going to be so upset. oh well oh well
May 24, 2008 @ 16:08:46
When I first started taking ativan, my psych put me on 3 1mg pills a day, too calm my wracked brain. He finally has me down to one a day, when needed. Don’t worry, you’ll make it. If you do run out, talk to your pharmacist and explain the situation, they might be able to set you up for a couple of days.
Peace,
Jun 19, 2008 @ 07:48:41
Somehow i missed the point. Probably lost in translation
Anyway … nice blog to visit.
cheers, Overdose!!