getting into the game

football is not my sport but tonight i watched the super bowl with bunch of friends. oh man oh man. i didn’t think i would get into the game at all. but in the fourth quarter i got my hopes up and then the giants came back. 😦 talk about having something in your hands just for a few minutes only to have it taken away from you.

i can’t figure out what it is about sports that draws me in. i mean, i don’t even watch football usually. but tonight i was really rooting for the patriots to win. it’s rather disappointing to have your team lose.

i feel like maybe i won’t watch any more sports – okay, except for when the redsox play. the way i am responding to tonight’s game is a bit like how some people (maybe myself included) view life: what’s the point of trying something if you can’t do it perfectly? in fact, i don’t feel that way about most things. i try to take baby steps and try to build on what i did before. but i can totally understand why someone would not want to try at all if they don’t think they can win.

i can’t wait until the baseball season!


as i wrote a thankyou note to my friends just a minute ago for a wonderful dinner last night to celebrate my life, i realized that i am part of an amazing community. while i am having a difficult time worshipping god right now, like the paralytic who was carried to jesus by friends, i am hoping that faith of my friends will carry me through this time period. so i decided to go to church. i am part of the body of christ and want to be there to worship god together with my fellow brothers and sisters in christ. what can i say, people love me and accept me at the church i belong to and that counts for something.


i just made coffee in my new coffee maker! and it tastes so good. 🙂 i got it as a gift. it’s programable and it has its own filter system too. i haven’t figured out how to use the filter yet. yes i’m just lazy like that.

i’m feeling really indecisive this morning. i was going to church at 8:30 am but decided not to. i could have gone to an 11 service but decided not to. now there is a 2:30 pm church service i could go to. should i go? i can’t decide. it’s just that going to church has not felt good. it’s hard to worship lately. do you have to go to church to worship god?

EM and i are having people over for superbowl. it is going to be great!

i just read the dynamics of faith by paul tillich. he’s brilliant. i can’t remember much of what i read but of what i remember it was really refreshing to read.