major trigger

since my visit with the psychopharm, i have had major intrusive thoughts about how to effectively kill myself.  friday night i was thinking about death and saturday i kept thinking of different ways to final exit.  then one of the groups today we did a behavioral analysis of the urges i had over the weekend.  after the group i got in touch with the urges and now i don’t know what to do!  i’m listening to music in order to not think about things.