hmmm

i don’t feel too good this morning. i got a great start at 7 am. but then i don’t know what happened! i think i made the mistake of thinking about the meaning of life. it’s rather upsetting to think about the lack of meaning in my life.

my intensive group therapy ends in 2 days. i can’t believe how fast 6 weeks went by. i’ll miss my group members! i wonder if the skills i learned in the program will help me cope. i had a meeting with the group leader for the new group i’ll be doing starting this wednesday. we went over my history and i suppose that was a bit triggering. there are just somethings left better unsaid. but then when you go over your medical history, like how many times i’ve been in the hospital, how can you ignore it?

everything seems so hard today.