the best response to the question “why live?” that i can think of is, “why not?” it’s all the same isn’t it in someways. whether i’m dead or alive life goes on for the rest of the world. i may make a difference for those who know me, i.e., friends and family. but i guess i wonder what purpose my life has. i don’t have an answer to that big question. all i know is that i’m breathing today and as long as i’m breathing, i have to do something. i can’t sleep all day although i’m pretty good at that. i mean i really can’t sleep all day everyday. while i’m here i might have to come up with something meaningful to occupy my waking moments.
i’m having a really hard time concentrating today. i just kept flipping pages of the book i’m presenting for tuesday. i guess there are good days and there are bad days of concentration. i’m thinking of just calling it a day and resting for the rest of the night.
i have to do jury duty in may! i was thinking of getting out of it somehow. but i think i will do my civic duty and serve on a jury. yup. that’s what i decided.
i’ve been listening to music all day long. i just felt like i couldn’t breathe without listening to music today. i’m looking forward to going to sleep tonight.