my friend thought she had to take meds for a week and get blood work to see if there are abnormal cell growth. but she realized the other day that she is supposed to take meds for 6 weeks then get blood work done. she seems quite at peace and not really scared. i think i am more scared for her than she is about herself. the blood test at the end of 6 weeks may just be one of the many tests to come. or not. she’s probably wise not to worry too much right now. they have already done a test and then told her she needs this additional test. so in my mind this next blood test is rather important.
crisis mode can only hold up for so long. and i’m trying to be supportive and understanding one day at a time. even though my friend says she’s not worried, i can see that she is making choices about how she spends her time more carefully. i would do the same. but shouldn’t we all do that all the time? none of us know how long we are going to live for sure. so we should do things that matter to us now, not put them off thinking that we can get to them later. who knows? maybe later won’t come. all that to say, we should live, really live in the moment. 🙂