i felt so awful yesterday. i felt physical pain as well as emotional distress. i didn’t feel that i could move so i couldn’t go exercise as planned. somehow i managed to go to group therapy. during group i felt like i was floating, my attention was going in and out, and basically i think i was detached from my surroundings. my sister had dropped me off. and i asked her to pick me up because i didn’t think i could walk home. man oh man. i didn’t know i could feel so bad. usually when i feel bad i stay in bed so i’m not aware of the physical sensations that my emotional state cases. yesterday, however, since i managed to get to group, i was conscious of the physical discomfort associated with feeling badly emotionally.
thank god i feel better this morning. i went to morning prayer and i’m really glad that i went. there’s nothing i look forward to or care about except for morning prayer.