today was the day i had been told about few months ago when i was hired: last day of church on its 38th anniversary. service felt sad…lots of emotions from everyone, including the preacher who wiped her tears a couple times during the sermon. honestly, parts of the service reminded me of a funeral rather than a celebration of God’s blessings for the past 38 years. but then the birthday cake for the church after the service reminded me that even though today’s service marks an end of an era, it’s also opening up space for a new beginning.
personally, my day was filled with drama. i woke up being unsure about what i was going to do starting next week. then i felt sure the right thing to do was to take a break since i didn’t get a green light from God. but then later in the afternoon, i came to see that for me, it’s as much quitting current ministry i am involved in as it is not starting new ministry if i don’t show up next sunday.
all in all, for every day, esp every sunday since december 13th 2009, i am thankful for, because being part of the church that closed today changed my life.