61 The spirit of the Lord God is upon me,
because the Lord has anointed me;
he has sent me to bring good news to the oppressed,
to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim liberty to the captives,
and release to the prisoners; (Isaiah 61:1)
It is not a little thing to claim, that the Spirit of the Lord is upon someone. Nonetheless, I know that the Spirit of the Lord is upon me to bring good news to the oppressed, to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to captives and release the prisoners.
Isaiah felt a sense of calling. He knew what God wanted him to do. Did he feel equipped to do these things? Because I feel a sense of calling and know that the Spirit of the Lord is upon me, but still I have so many times felt inadequate, unequipped, and unsure of how and what I could do to be faithful to my calling.
This morning, I pray that God would equip me. God help me to feel your help. I know I can’t do what I was called to do on my own. Lord, have mercy! Come quickly to my aid. Because I am sinking little by little into self doubt and losing confidence in my abilities. And yes, I do remember as I write this that when I lose confidence in my abilities, you can still use me, maybe even more so, when I acknowledge my weaknesses and see that you are strong and that you can accomplish great things through and in me still.