You are my God

“You are my God, and I will give thanks to you; you are my God, I will extol you” (Psalm 118:28)

Dear God, you are my God.  You have created me, you have sustained me, you have brought me out of darkness, you gave me life that I could live, testifying to your goodness.  You have healed me, God, from an unrelenting depression.  I am now working as a chaplain helping others who need to be comforted.

In a thousand years, I did not imagine I would ever recover.  I thought every moment being crushed in pain was the life I would know until my death.  You are my God and I give thanks to you.  You have shown me mercy I did not deserve but desperately needed.  God, help me to remain helpful, not to lose heart at the first sign of difficult or discouraging emotions.  Let my life be an encouragement to others who need you.

God, you know my thoughts and my desires even before I can clearly articulate them myself.  God help me to be a faithful servant, good steward of the resources you have given me.  Thank you, God.  I praise you, for you are my God.

you have become my salvation

“I thank you that you have answered me and have become my salvation” (Psalm 118:21)

I thank you, God, for today.  I have the day off from work.  And I am able to relax, drink coffee, read the Bible and to pray.  I am so thankful this morning for my life.  Lately, I have been feeling sad and unmotivated on weekends, which at times cause me to think life is but a misery.  God, give me strength and hope that I can live through such moments/days of sadness and hopelessness.  Let me live in reality that you are my salvation!

PTL for getting through another year

Birthdays no longer feel as special as they used to feel.  Nonetheless, having a day to remember that I have made it through another year is a true blessing.  In the past year, I started my first job as a chaplain, took two courses at a local seminary, stayed healthy and stable.  What more could I have done?  I don’t know, I feel like the past year was pretty full and fulfilling.  Thank you, God!  Thank you, Jesus!  I’m a happy and lucky camper.  Also, I’m thankful to my boyfriend.  We’re a good match even if we don’t know how the future will turn out.  Thanks everyone for the support!

good for the soul

what does it mean to be chaplain to patients who are well?  at the last place i worked, everyone had a serious illness.  the place i’m working now, patients are pretty well.  what does it mean to provide chaplain care in such a place?  it is true that many patients say they are well, they don’t need a chaplain.  some patients, however, are dealing with life issues that call out for additional support whether in hospital or any where else!  how can i best identify patients who need chaplain support so that those who want and need emotional and spiritual support can get help they need?  that’s what’s on my mind this morning.

Biological Clock

is there such thing as biological clock?  if they exist, i’m sure that i don’t have one in me.  i’m getting older and older.  my friends are married, and on their way to first or second child, if not third.  as i’m getting older, if i had a biological clock, if it were ticking at all, wouldn’t i get the sense that maybe i should find my man, settle down and start popping out babies?  i am skeptical at this point that biological clocks exist, or if they do that i have one that is ticking!

i am doing it!

I quit! I quit smoking. ok. it’s been only couple of days. do you know how many cigarettes I didn’t smoke in the past couple days? not smoking means better health and saving money!  so what’s the secret?  having great friends around you who care about you.  it helps to be reminded too that i can choose Jesus instead of cancer sticks!  😉