Getting used to my new job didn’t take long. To my delight, before my three month review, evaluation where my supervisor can recommend to terminate me or to keep me, I was offered more hours so that instead of part time, I am full time equivalent. Do we live in order to work? It would seem that working enables us to live! Far from making me less energized, work gives my life more meaning and gets me up and out of bed out of the house and into the world. Into the world where my mere presence and gifts and talents God has given me comfort and encourage others. Even where prayer is concerned, of course I pray far more for others and with others than I do on my own, my humble prayers, words of my heart bring peace and strength to those who need it. I wasn’t sure chaplaincy was my gig. Well, I still don’t know whether it is my only gig in life to be pursued. I do know that it is what gets me going from one day to the next knowing that somehow God is working through me to bring comfort to God’s people.
what does it mean to be chaplain to patients who are well? at the last place i worked, everyone had a serious illness. the place i’m working now, patients are pretty well. what does it mean to provide chaplain care in such a place? it is true that many patients say they are well, they don’t need a chaplain. some patients, however, are dealing with life issues that call out for additional support whether in hospital or any where else! how can i best identify patients who need chaplain support so that those who want and need emotional and spiritual support can get help they need? that’s what’s on my mind this morning.
i went to morning prayer this morning. i am not even sure why i went since i don’t think that god is listening to my prayers. i prayed for another person and felt really weird about doing that. i think i’m going through a crisis of some sort spiritually. nothing makes sense anymore. i’m not sure what i believe anymore.