surprisingly, i have more will power or something than i believed i was capable of. my friend who i am not dating but is more than a friend (i don’t know what that means either) and i decided that it would be best for us to put breaks on, not full stop but slow down. timing was perfect. i have the most important task of my life to apply to schools so i can live a more fulfilling life ahead of me. and so having more time for myself rather than less serves me well. everything always comes down to whether something contributes to improve the quality of my life, i.e., help me to learn and to teach. in the past, i decided not to date or to stop dating when i judged i would be more productive on my own. do most girls think like this? i have a sense that the way i think may not be how most women think. and yet, it’s the most natural way and most sensible way i navigate through my life. not that i knew this would happen, but my new friendship/relationship is working well, surprisingly so.