finally finally – some big questions

sometime in august my sister and i are relocating to ny. it’s happening so fast neither of us are able to catch up with all the changes. yesterday, my therapist asked me how i feel about the move and i started crying. i had kept myself busy with trying to figure out the move and logistics of it all. i wasn’t really paying attention to how i felt about leaving a place i feel at home. i have lived in boston for the past ten years, in the same apartment no less. i have never lived in one town for that long. i lived in seoul for the first 13 years of my life. but we moved around practically every year until i was about 10 yrs old?

so the big question of course is why are we moving? my sister hates boston. she’s been having a difficult time finding a job. as for myself, i don’t want to and am not capable at this point of living by myself. and my bf of about 6 months (give or take a few weeks) is also in ny. it makes it easier to leave boston at this point in my life because i just finished a degree program. and just in the past year my close friends have moved away from boston or gotten married and seem like they moved away. so as for leaving friends in boston, i don’t feel desperate separation anxiety or anything.

most people when they move to new york do so for a personal reason, like for a job, for a significant other, school, etc. most of the time, people want to live in ny. i used to want to live in manhattan. but now, i think manhattan is way to crowded and way too busy. we’ll be living in one of the boroughs and i may not even go into the city thqt often. i don’t think i would have a reason to go into the city unless i went to a church in the city or started taking classes at one of the schools or something.

i started saying that i’m practically 40 years old. and with that awareness, that in a few years that i really will turn forty, i wonder about where i’ve been, where i’m going and where i’ll be. i know i like my life now. i am happy with what i am doing or will be doing. as for what i will be in the next couple years, i have no clue.


moving after ten years?

my sister, my bf and i have been organizing our current apartment. the goal is to get ready for packing. it happened so fast it seems unreal. my sister and i might move down to nyc area! is that so crazy or what? i mean, i have been in the boston area for past decade, in the same apartment. the transition is going to be unreal. but i think at the moment, moving might be in the best interest for everyone, including me, especially for recovering from depression i would say.

i ran into the store manager who interviewed me for apple retail store in boston area. she remembered my name! good sign i thought. so i might apply for jobs in the nyc area too. so maybe i’ll get to spend all my money that i earn at the store i earned it at after all!!!

oh of course, my therapist says the move is going to be very stressful and not recommended for my recovery from depression. 😛